I feel negative. I wonder why. I think there are times when I feel that way.
I would like to write a rare article in real time
because I have always felt that there are many people like me.
November 16, 2024 was a full moon.
I should mention in advance that the day after I write this I feel refreshed.
And it's not like I get sick every month, nor is this a serious story with any scientific basis. This
is just my personal record, so please read it only if you want to.
Me a few days before the full moon
Could it be a cold? Or coronavirus? Even though I didn't have any symptoms, I felt tired and was surrounded by negative emotions.
In one word, everything felt like a hassle.
To be more specific, I felt like
:- I don't want to do things that I could do in an instant-
Even going out for a quick trip is an enormous hassle- I
'm not depressed, but I have no motivation-
I should be happy and having fun, but my heart just doesn't move-
I can't stop looking at negative information, like I'm criticizing someone- As
a result, I fall into self-loathing-
I find myself constantly saying "what am I doing?"
- I
feel extremely sleepy- I think about doing something completely unexpected, but then realize that it's pointless-
I keep making simple mistakes
There are many more examples if we go into detail, but what they all have in common is that, for no apparent reason, they
feel like it's a hassle, they don't want to do it, it's fine for now, they're tired, they get a little annoyed, they know it's wrong but they still do it anyway, their heart doesn't move them,
and they go and stare at the negative side of things.
I went to see my past self
It's simple, but I keep a diary.
It may not be something you can call a diary, but it's just a habit.
My blog is almost a part of it, and there are some things I don't post on Ameblo or in my notebook.
Thinking back, I think I've been doing this for over 20 years.
When I look back at myself recently and see when it was, it was often around the full moon.
I have similar feelings, and each time I struggle with them, do strange things, and then regret them.
I had a vague feeling that maybe I get a big one about once every six months.
And this time too, somewhere in my heart I knew, and I felt like, "Ah, it's that time of year."
It's not that I'm feeling unwell because I'm conscious of the full moon, but rather that I think something is strange, and when I get contacted by people who feel the same way, it's like I'm seeing the full moon by chance.
The influence of the full moon
Rather than being scientifically proven, there are experiments and data on this, but there are pros and cons.
Some of them are related to humans, such as a decrease in quality of sleep, negative feelings, and an increase in accidents, while others involve changes in the behavioral patterns of animals and plants.
I don't really care what the results are, and I don't get depressed every time there's a full moon.
Sometimes, big ones come in and people with similar symptoms come to me for advice, and when someone who is knowledgeable about such things asks, "It was tough this time, but were you okay?", I can understand what they're talking about.
Even if it's not the moon's fault, I think that the changes in gravity and other things will have some effect on the global scale, such as on tide levels.
There is a type of yoga called Ashtanga yoga that is rather stoic, and there are also types of yoga where you can take a break from practice only on full moon days.
There is no need to assume that it is a full moon, and the timing is different for each person.
I think it's fine whether you are affected or not, and that's not what I want to talk about today.
It's not all bad
This is just my own experience, but at times like these, I get tired so I try to block out all the information.
When I just can't block it out, I turn on classical music or something.
Just by doing that, my frayed feelings become calmer.
When you think too much, I think the best way to escape is to move your body.
However, even though I understand that during the full moon, even that is included in the "troublesome"
category. I think I struggled, but I was forcing myself to do muscle training.
If you look at it objectively, there are good aspects to this situation.
It gives you time to look at yourself objectively.
This time I thought about information.
The reason I was feeling down was because I couldn't stop watching pointless videos. I
don't think it's a good or bad thing, but I think it's similar to when you sometimes have an uncontrollable craving for junk food.
The problem isn't watching it, it's blaming yourself for watching it.
Even though I knew it would be good for me to move my body, I couldn't
But I am trying to do strength training.
When I look at myself objectively, I can see that I am struggling to get out of this situation.
I also find myself going there to quietly read a book, have tea, and experience something out of the ordinary.
Even if we try to do these things on a daily basis, we often fail to do so.
Even if the reason is simply because we want to run away, I think that ultimately changing patterns and searching for what we really want is a very good thing in the long run.
I thought quite seriously about what I could do to truly be happy.
It's not often that I have time to do that.
Although this is an important time, I think it was something that was put off due to being busy.
Locally-reported solutions
I'm not a spiritual person, so I don't know the details,
but there are a few things I naturally do at times like that:
Drink a lot of water Take a long
salt bath (you can add sake if you have it)
Meditate
Personally, I also go for walks, but when it's this "troublesome," I don't force
myself to do it. What's common to both of these things deep down is that they give you a break, including your thoughts.
Don't go against nature
I don't resist, I can't resist.
Even if I really want to play outside, I give up when it's a typhoon.
That's because I know I can't resist.
I don't know if the moon is having an effect, but I feel like there are a lot of people who are feeling the effects of it.
I'm writing this because I want those people to know that they're not alone.
Maybe it's because of the full moon
Again, there is no need to be overly conscious of the full moon and to be on edge,
nor is there any need to pinpoint it as the cause.
However, humans are creatures who are satisfied if they understand the reason.
If we don't understand the reason, our thoughts just go round in circles.
I'm sure you've used it at least once, without really knowing if it was relevant until recently.
"Because it's coronavirus."
If we had looked deeper, we might have found that there was no direct connection, and there are surely cases where there was no data
. Nevertheless, wouldn't we have been satisfied with the statement "it's because of COVID" or stopped thinking about it any further?
When you feel negative
and out of sorts
and can't get out of that
situation, there may be no need to force yourself to escape.
Even when you just can't do it, try harder and don't blame yourself.
"Oh, it's because of the full moon."
I think there are times when you just need to accept that.
The ultimate goal is to live a better life
Whatever the situation, as long as you are satisfied and your life is good, then it's fine.
It doesn't really matter if it's because of the full moon or not.
However, if creating a hypothetical cause, such as the full moon, ultimately helps you to come to terms with the situation and escape from the pain, then isn't that simply a survival technique?
Up until yesterday, several people had been messaging me and calling me saying, "I'm not feeling so great," so I told them I was feeling the same.
"It'll probably be over by tomorrow, won't it?" I thought to myself, but I thought I should just go to bed at a time like this. That was the end of it.
"I hope so." Even though I had received that response, I received several messages today saying that they felt better.
I myself have returned to my old self, thinking I should do something.
And I have had this experience many times before.
People seek out light and try to chase it,
but I think light and shadow go hand in hand.
How we deal with our negative (shadow) side may be just as important as seeking the light.
No matter how hard you try, things will work out in the end
Maybe sometimes there are times like this and being forced to take a break isn't such a bad thing after all.
And when I realized that I was receiving the energy properly,
I think it will turn into gratitude.
From a place as far away as the moon
When I look at myself struggling and trying my best,
You may find it very endearing.
Thanks for reading
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